Happy Easter ... Or Not

Alright so yesterday was Easter. I remember a long time ago as a child how excited I was for Easter.

"Oh yea I'm cool, the Easter Bunny gave me lot's of candy and eggs and toys."
"No mom this is all my candy, no one else's"

Well that changed quicker than I thought it would. I loved Easter so much, and I still do, but I had the worst Easter this year.

My step-dad's granddad's yard needed some cleaning up to do and they are to old to do it. And of course you know, I didn't really mind it just bugged me that I'm always forced to do these things and I just picked up sticks last week.

Well I had to wake up at 7 in the morning, again, yesterday and leave to get there. Well when we got there we started right away. We had like 3 or 4 breaks the whole day and that was all.

Their yard was huge, like no joke. I never picked up so much sticks and tree limbs in my life. I worked my ass of dragging almost all of the branches to the pile for my step-dad to saw the tree's so they can go on the pile to burn, which was the easy part.

My hands and arms are all torn up and I'm extremely sore!
This is the hardest thing I've done in my life.

We worked until 9 and went inside and watched a movie. By then I just wanted to go home and pass out.

So that whole day I was furious, exhausted, sore, and just felt like giving up.

The only thing that kept me going was that I made myself think that this was karma and that I was making up for the dumb mistakes I've made these past few weeks.

I don't know how I did it all. It was way harder than you can imagine!



Yea I never thought my Easter would be like that. It pisses me off that my step-dad thinks he can use me whenever he likes. I needed to rehearse for the summer musical auditions that were today but I couldn't. Now I have to wait 'till Wednesday to audition.

I swear he isn't the role model I've always wanted. Bitching about Emily one day and making me do stuff for his selfish needs and could care less about my feelings.

He is fine sometimes it's just, I don't know.

Everything he said to me about Emily really hurt.

Alright well I'm getting off task so I'm gonna go now.



Hope everyone had a great Easter!

HAPPY late EASTER =]

Gotta Stand Strong

Alright so Saturday evening, April 4, I got a phone call from my step-dad while I was at Olive Garden. He told me I was spending the night that night and helping him clean up his yard in the morning. I was so pissed off when I heard this. I didn't want to spend my weekend picking up sticks!

So Sunday came and I was awaken by my step dad while in bed. I put my shorts on before i walked to the bathroom and went to the shower. After showering, our mission began.

Now my mom has a pretty big yard with a lot of trees, trees that have gumballs, and no not the fun kind either!

It was about 9 AM when we started. We raked leaves, picked up sticks, and all that jazz to yard cleaning. I swear it seemed like after you picked up one stuck, two more took its place! Well we took little breaks every so often.

After about 5 hours of hard working, we finally finished and jumped into the shower once again to clean up. We were going to Evansville Next

To shorten this up because I have homework, we went to get me sliding shorts and some underwear for the dressing scene in the musical.

Yea, so I didn't get home 'till about 7 that evening. Then I got on yahoo to talk to Zakk.





Well that totally sucked to.
We were so close, so tight, really good friends just in different states, which caused our problem. We got into this major fight about something I can;t explain to you because you would have to be us. So to put things to rest, I told him I think it would be best for us if we forgot our relationship. Well he wasn't so happy about that idea, and of course, neither was I. I knew that that's what would be the best for the both of us. Hopefully he'll see that someday then we could continue to be friends.

He so he's pissed at me and said a lot of things that really hurt me.

I still haven't got over it, maybe I will, maybe I won't.
I'll still put on a smile

Love You Guys