Decisions, Decisions

Naturally, as a part of life, people in this world have to make decisions. It's just something no one can avoid whether they are small and somewhat pointless, or huge and life-altering.

Once again, I have been faced with a difficult decison that is killing both me, and two other people. I hate hurting these people because I love them in everyway that counts, but I just can not wait too much longer. I am hurting as well; its kiling me and i just wish i could get away.

Decision making can be something very hard to figure out, but you have to understand you have to follow your heart, and do what is best for yourself, no matter who you hurt. I'm not saying hurting someone is ok but SOMETIMES, you have to do it to be happy.

Making a decision is something that should be decided only by you, and not by someone else. But sometimes getting another person's opinion and hhearing what they have to say helps. Just don't forget they will most likely not see it they way you do, and do not have all the facts.

It isn't the easiest thing to do, but in the end if all doesnt work out, you still have all the people around you that love you.

You have to fight through the tough times to get to the good times and
doing so will only make you stronger as a person. Don't give up!!! :-)

Give Me A Break

No, not from a Kit Kat bar silly

What I'm saying is

I'm tired of all the gay ass drama always happening in my life. Yea, I know I'm complaining and some people have it worse than me. I know this isn't going to solve any of my problems, but it will make me feel better because I exactly don't have a guy or girl I can talk to about anything anymore (things are getting better though).

So let me tell you a story from one of my problems going on recently =/

Alright today confirmed all thoughts of this one guy being mad at me. I am not mentioning any names FYI. We were somewhat close but I didn't seem to have any special kind of spark with him, not love spark either lol. So I knew we weren't going to be very close friends you know, like majorly close.
Well back to the story! So this girl, no names, comes up to me and was like

Oh hang on I got a letter in the mail about the summer musical

Alright
okay she was like.

--- is mad at you and Kelli and she's was in the dressing room crying after Shoeless Joe

At first I was kinda like yea I knew it but then I got pissed because apparently, we were being asses to this person Saturday and not wanted to be around him as much as I'm around Kelli (SOUNDS A LOT MY OTHER FIGHT!)
Okay so yea now I know he's mad at me and that he was trying to make me jealous around Brandan. I don't really care but he's not taking my best friend from me.

I'm not trying to take Kelli from him at all either!

I just like hanging with Kelli, she's easier to be with without having to worry about getting yelled at all the time.

I'm sorry if you don't understand this at all and I just think it's stupid that he gets mad at us and doesn't tell us about it to play with our minds!

I felt so bad for Kelli! I hate it when people cry and I can't do a thing about it.
I'm glad after rehearsal today that a lot of Drama Kids went to Tastee Freeze.

We had fun I needed it.

Alright I do feel better.

I really don't know what to do.

Everything is falling apart right in front of my eyes and I can't do a damn thing!
(You don't even know!)

Alright I need to go get naked
and shower =]
so Imma get off now
BYE