I have a few things I'de love to share with you lovely people :D
Summer is ALMOST over! Well for me and many other band kids at Boonville it is. Band camp starts up again June 19. Sadly, it's June 2. I'm excited for marching band I'm just not excited for summer to be over with yet. There is still so much I wanna do!
I finally got my car!! Well, sorta. It's a white '99 Chevy Cavalier. It is a pretty nice car and it has a sunroof. So I am pretty happy with it My aunt needed a new car because it was getting hard to afford her van. So she was gonna get another car and trade in her van or something like that. Well for something quicker, she decided to go ahead and get the car my mom was paying for from my sister and brother-in-law and use it for a while. So as of now, we share the car. I can't even drive it yet because she doesn't have my name on the insurance. Which is a huge bummer, and is like a major tease with it being in the driveway and not being able to drive it! Hopefully my aunt or mom will be able to add my name this next week. it's all about the money baby!
I was totally and completely wrong about what was going on between me and Jacob. I thought you know, maybe he does care about me. That he had to feel some kind of connection since i was feeling a huge connection that I couldn't even explain. I had such a deep desire and passion for him. It was pretty much impossible to hide. Especially when I would be talking to him. All those little things that were so big to me that I thought were the same to him, probably was never there for him. There was so much to him that I just easy loved and fell for. The whole entire time I should've listened to Chris and James. I finally confronted Jacob about my feelings. I told him I understood that he recently got out of a relationship and that he didn't want to be with anyone or was slightly interested. I knew he didn't want to think about boys at all. Then I asked him that besides that, is there anything there for me? Do you like me at all; is there any hope for me? And I asked if i should wait for him. He told me that he wasn't sure if he liked me, and that it probably isn't a good idea to wait. Then later I asked if he really wasn't sure. I just wanted the dead beat truth. So he told me he didn't like me, but wasn't sure if its cause of what went on or not. By that point I was already fighting tears. I couldnt really ask much more becuase I was using my aunt's cell and it was wasting minutes. Looks like I'm going to have to accept friendship. I never felt so humiliated or stupid. At least we are friends; I'm not gonna complain too much :P.
I have dreamed of auditioning for American Idol for a long time now. Now is the year I am eligable, but I'm starting to have doubts if that is what I really want to do. I mean I enjoy singing but I'm not sure if that is really what I want to do. Besides I don't think it would be worth spending money to take a trip to auditions for if I'm not interested. I have until June 19th to decide.
Some things I am looking forward to in the next few months are enjoying my last few days of summer, marching band, the marchathon, gay day at holiday world, and surprisingly school. I have a feeling this school year is gonna be a big one.
This was the very first celebrity dinner I have attended. I sure did have to look hard for a ride there. My mom ended up going to Holiday World and my aunt was working. Luckily though, I found a ride at the very last minute. Katie Fisher thankfully gave me a ride. When I arrived it was absolutly gorgeous. It reminded me of a wedding. The food was pretty good, but it wasn't the best. I sat at the table with the TSA youth group so it was a lot of fun :D The waitors made a lot of money on tips; over $1,000!!
So overall, I would say it was succesful and I am very pleased I got to be a part of this event and do something to help. I am very much looking forward to attending next year ^_^
